Peregrinating around Poole

A week ago, I went to visit my friend Patsy (she had lived in the flat above mine in halls), despite the lockdown still being reasonably in place.

Following a long, winding drive into Dorset, the roads became shrouded in thick and acrid smoke trailing from an out-of-sight farm. On the motorway, speeding cars agitated the hanging fumes while it seemed to linger amid the trees that lined the endless stretch of tarmac.

I took a number of pictures during a quick tour of Poole and Bournemouth as she showed me around her digs and the streets on which the memories of her childhood had been played out on…

Long time, Corona

It’s nearly been a whole year since I wrote a last blog post. How irrefutably lazy.

First day at uni, I remembered being entranced by the number of interesting bodies and faces that floated above and gave character to old Yorkshire streets.

First day at uni

My first year of university was unbelievable. Initially saturated and soaked in debauchery and wrung dry of invested time in studying, as are most first year experiences, I feel that I progressed and conquered the plights of infected kitchen conditions and awful student club nights to find real definitive contentment in my position and course. I met many people on similar wavelengths to me, not only on my course but among other university circles and in the city. My choice to study languages at Leeds is one of the most fantastic I have made; I am now so grateful for my knowledge in both languages and the underestimated license and liberty of student life. Additionally, I found my advancing ability in Arabic very handy in Leeds itself, due to an expansive Muslim/Middle-Eastern population. “Assalaamu alaikum” never fails to plaster unforgettable grins and evoke bursts of energy from native speakers.

After a few months of socialising and observing the Islamic and Arabic influence not only at the University but in Leeds, I began to photograph areas of the city (Mainly in Harehills) where predominantly Muslim communities live, with an aim of collating a collection of pictures about the Northern English/Arabic identity. I encountered many Muslims and Arabic people with very thick North Yorkshire accents, of course because they had been born in the local area, but I also met some converts who had been touched in some way or another by the Islamic teaching and values. Here are just a few snaps that came from the inkling of an idea.

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Harehills is quite a deprived area, caressed by trails of litter and grime, it’s alley-like streets point on an incline up to the Mosque where elegant minarets cut into the moody Yorkshire skyline.

I spent days wandering the main roads and floating in and out of off-licenses, halal butchers and Arabic supermarkets.

When I return I would really like to put a real project together, and invest a long time into getting familiar with specific people.

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Socially and photographically, things were starting to get really interesting in Leeds and the place began feeling more like somewhere that I felt was intended for me.

Until those headlines began to descend upon us. A Chinese disease that was fledged through the student bubble as being serious, yet containable within its country of origin, quickly became the only thing passing people’s lips. Admittedly, I continued to assume that this virus from Wuhan was something that would ride itself into the ground elsewhere across the world. Nevertheless, the tides of time and exponential infection rates proved me very wrong and have washed this problematic possibility of getting quite ill up onto all of our doorsteps.

These last few months have proved to be a period where headlines and top news stories have become direct influences in my immediate life. I think it is the first time that a globally relevant piece of news has done this to me. The virus morphed from an intangible and abstract concept, as are many allegories of war, contempt and racism in the media, into a real danger. Now, occurrences on the other side of the world no longer remain comfortably encapsulated by the neat rectangle through which we perpetually scroll, at which we ungraciously gawp and to whose doldrum beat we drearily dance our hurried jigs. To observe something that has been claiming lives in hospitals across the world turn into a nefarious, airborne presence that has pumped genuine panic into the veins and eyes of someone as I accidentally invaded the two-metre personal perimeter in a supermarket aisle, is something I will never forget. I will also not forget the chronic monotony of lockdown. For a few weeks, binge watching Tiger King and making falafels were the height of thrills.

Although I live among the seldom-crowded voluptuous green bosoms of Sussex flora and farmland, sequestering beautiful pastoral scenes, undisturbed fauna and sweet isolated groves, I can’t help but notice and gaze gratefully upon the remarkable societal re-surfacing among the few I am surrounded by. By this I mean our relationships with one another as co-existing members of the world have been refreshed. The usual moderate alienation exhibited between English neighbours has dissipated, and a difficult time has drawn us closer. I think this time has shown how much we all need each other. Peremptory pressures and crucial engagements have finally quietened down in urgency, making life hushed enough so we can hear the ticking of our internal clocks and leaving enough time to learn how to understand what keeps us healthy and satisfied.

Upon the cancellation of my lectures and seminars at uni, I canvassed myself to decide what was the best option: a warm bed and free food or empty hospital vibes and dripping damp on the walls of my halls bedroom. Obviously I returned, and I’ve very much enjoyed being home. The forest near my house has assuaged and soothed my bouts of over-pondering on numerous occasions and the reconnection with my family has been well needed.

I must say that apart from one family friend whose life has been touched by the virus, albeit ephemerally, those who I hold dear have remained in good health and isolated safety. To whoever is reading this, I hope your loves are also safe and well.

Although this universal force majeure has blown plans and routine asunder, this hiatus from normal life has allowed a long period of reflection. I myself find I go week to week and hour to hour through determined flashes of sedulous focus, which then dissipate into coming up with worryingly effective methods of procrastination. Ultimately, the only thing that matters is that we fill our day with exactly what we want to do. I have now realised that there need be no pressure in life and attempting a sustained positivity makes my day much brighter.

Please find here some snaps from a few walks around my home and in Brighton.

This muslim woman was so distractingly meditative. As families and dog-walkers flurried past her, she remained still and quelled the wind and normally tumultuous Brighton waves with a pensive stare.

This muslim woman was so distractingly meditative. As families and dog-walkers flurried past her, she remained still and quelled the wind with her stare.

Micky, a council worker and Brighton and Hove Albion fan toils on the beach in the morning hours, spraying a 2 meter distance warning every few hundred yards. Between each sign were a number of trailing yellow boot-prints from where he had accidenta…

Micky, a council worker and Brighton and Hove Albion fan toils on the beach in the morning hours, spraying a 2 meter distance warning every few hundred yards.

My Grandma and her neighbour drink tea and chat over the wall separating their houses

My Grandma and her neighbour drink tea and chat over the wall separating their houses

These portraits are of Bob and his tattoos, which he accumulated during his Army service in Hong Kong, Palestine and Germany. I encountered him on VE day as he was waiting on Brighton seafront for the spitfire flyover, just as I was. Unfortunately the plane had flown parallel to the beach but several miles from the actual coastline. I was barely able to see it, and so I wasn’t surprised when Bob hadn’t spotted it.

Abandoned Faro

*Apologies for any incorrect German, I recorded some of a conversation but my comprehension and grammar may be wrong*

Yesterday I met an incredibly interesting hermit called Tom.

As we drove into town, we passed fields beset at the sides by bushes and olive trees through which I often saw dark-skinned men riding slick horses at high speeds in the dry air.

After finalising the painting of my uncle’s house yesterday morning, he drove me to Faro, which hangs at the deep south of the Algarve. I think there are quite a few Romani gypsy communities surrounding Faro and in the Algarve; it would be a very interesting project to speak to them and enquire about their lives.

I was dropped off among a tawdry collection of Sky Sports bars and restaurants offering full English breakfasts, but meandered without direction other than of my camera’s magnetism to compelling subjects and scenes. There were locals playing card games and couples entwined on park benches across the square by the marina.

Eventually a large carpark presented itself, there were orange leaves from the trees covering every inch of car and tarmac. A quiet queue of traffic hummed across the stretch of rusted and matte-finished cars alike, underlining the deep blue horizon of the sea from my perspective. I continued walking, reasonably uninspired and still searching. I knew that I had to come to Faro for some reason. As I continued walking, a series of brick orbs rose in the distance, they looked like huge sprouting caterpillars, but were in fact a part of an architectural feature. An anarchy tag drew me to them though.

I’ve been finding that I am taking many more pictures of architecture, graffiti and people in juxtaposition to their surroundings, as opposed to just portraits. I find portraits the most exciting and intimate kind of photography, but a story can be more understandable when the relationships between subjects and surroundings are presented.

After snapping this picture I continued to a frail wire fence behind a row of huge date palm trees that cordoned off the train-track, along which a heavily graffitied carriage grumbled momentarily after. I noticed a break in the fence and so climbed through and hopped over the tracks to a neat bay complete with a forsaken boat at the side, which pointed down the shore towards a series of dilapidated buildings embellished with large graffiti tags (‘Peixe’ which means fish). I also noticed a few emaciated horses loosely tied to shrubs, they were so calm and still in the heat.

I looked into the buildings (which were actually dry, spacious halls built of stone walls) for other people; I initially thought there would be gypsies near to the tied-up animals, but I couldn’t find anyone. However, I did notice a large collection of bottles, tiles, dried palm tree branches and other trinkets inside one of the halls and heard scuttled movements from inside.

The daylight was so intense, I couldn’t see into the shadows of the open space, but walked away to respect the dweller’s privacy.

I continued inspecting the area and ventured inside one small dark hole at the foot of what was once a doorway, but is now tagged and blocked up. Inside were holes in the floor, giving way to lapping dirty seawater that licked the crumbling rocks and tiles. There was a bed in the corner of the room and a skeleton of a wooden mezzanine, that appeared to be have been there for years.

Upon exiting the opaque space, I observed a bearded man walking towards the horses across the dusty opening between the buildings. Staggering and emerging, I called out to him asking if he knew the owner of the horses. He shook his head and in little English explained his surprise at them being there. I detected a slight German twinge to his accent and asked if he spoke the language, to which he fantastically burst into fluency and articulation. I can remember the gist of a lot of what he was saying but can only distinctly recall a few phrases; they are in bold.

He first explained to me that he was from Switzerland and that civilisation had started to bore him. He vaguely told me after a history of bad experiences, he had decided to leave the “Quatschen” (chatter) of society and live a life how he wanted to live it. The conversation was then interrupted by an inescapable and overwhelming surge of air and noise as a large Ryanair flight descended upon Faro airport. I joked of the masses of rowdy English tourists arriving, and we agreed there were too many people in Faro. Tom said the only reasons he goes into town now are for tobacco or supplies.

“Geld kauft kein Glück”/”Money cannot buy happiness”

It was so good to talk in German again, I truly have missed the challenge of understanding meanings to words that are not easily translatable into English. It astonishes me to think that there are and were thousands of current, ancient and forgotten languages in which untranslatable or incomprehensible situations were spoken of, understood and documented. Now all people want to do is look at their phones. Tom and I spoke about this as well:

“Es gibt nicht nur eine Abhängingkeit von Drogen, aber der bei deiner Handy auch”

Following some conversation, he moved towards the horses and mentioned their scarred and torn underbellies, some wounds seemed infected. As seen in some of the pictures, he held the horse’s head in thin hands and began whispering German words into its ear. It was such a beautiful moment – he closed his eyes and the horse seemed to do the same, in perfect understanding. We then took the tight ropes from the necks of two mares and two foals. They sat eating next to us under the pulsating sun next to dried salt pools, until full of fresh grass and then galloped into neighbouring fields.

“Leute studieren Fächer wie Philosophie an der Uni, aber meiner Meinung nach bietet das Leben genug herauszufinden”/”People study subjects like philosophy at university, but in my opinion, life offers enough to find out”

Tom then showed me his house of sorts, which was immaculately organised and presented. We smoked dog ends rolled in strips of old brown paper and talked about how chemicals are put into the food of modern society and how that changes the chemistry of our brains and imbalances our hormones.

I then left him with two euros and wished him the best with his life and journey, to which he said “Viel Glück”/”good luck”.

2 Months since New Zealand

I am one day away from having been back for two months on the more crowded side of the world, and I am missing New Zealand very much. I met so many generous, hospitable and interesting people, including those among the Mongrel Mob, a group that I spent nearly half of my time in NZ photographing and understanding. 

Choosing to leave home and learn about a different culture was the best decision I have ever made and caused me to realise why I want to pursue photography. Looking at old photos now reminds me of good times and striking moments, allowing me to vicariously peer back into what into NZ culture.

I am currently in Portugal painting my uncle’s house that he has recently built. By night I’ve been painting until around 02:00AM listening to NZ artists like Melodownz and Average Rap Band, but by day I have been going to the markets in local areas of the Algarve such as São Brás and Loulé, to capture the spirit of the local people and the lively atmosphere that is so defining of European markets. 

In contrast to NZ where my first language is spoken, it is strange being immersed in an environment where the prevalence of a foreign tongue blurs out the audible world into white noise, it allows the mind to focus more on the immediate situation as opposed to listening to what words are being used by others. As one sense is dimmed the other is increased, which quite often results in enthralling photos.

When I arrived, my first shoot began walking around the central municipal hall on market day shooting from the hip (taking pictures without looking through the viewfinder), and quickly snapping scenes or individuals. This technique normally works very well for me in the UK or in NZ, but in Portugal it evoked dismal and awkward reactions. As I kept taking pictures, I felt I wasn’t interacting with my subjects, but rather stealing moments from them.

Hurriedly I entered a small café at the side of the hall. It was filled with old locals drinking espressos and eating Pastel de Natas. Wizened faces looked up expectantly at me as I encroached, while gentle wafts of cigarette smoke flowed steadily from the open door opposite to me, which lead into a courtyard filled with freshly-risen British, German and French tourists. It seemed almost as if it was a place where the men could congregate in reclusion away from the scantily-clad and flip-flopped masses. With disconnected technique, my shutter snapped a couple of times as I silently and walked across the small room. As I made my way out, an elder in the corner disapprovingly shouted “Bom Dia, Senõr!” Which means ‘Good Morning, Sir!’ I was so embarrassed but considered what I was doing by remaining silent with no interaction other than making a clicky-shutter noise at them and running away.

I learned my lesson and stumbled out onto the street, taking with me his exclamation. I tried using it to greet anyone just for fun, and then started asking for pictures. Of course, the response was so much more positive.

I noticed others using the same greeting to acknowledge each other. Whether it was when passing a stranger on the stairs of a bus station, encountering a drunkard in a small, secluded drinking spot, or making eye contact with a random in the midst of a busy street market, the interconnectivity between people is so tangible here.

You can order coffee and get a service, or you can exchange a polite courtesy beforehand and get a coffee with a beautiful smile. It is those one or two second moments that really make a difference in life. They pull us all tighter together.

The superficiality of modern western culture (staring at your phone while walking down the street) blinded me to this gorgeous aspect of Portuguese and wider European culture.

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Albacore Tuna

Amid the bustling heat of Auckland’s Viaduct quarter, I walked excitedly towards the towering masts of luxury catamarans and millionaire’s yachts which of course gave direction to the harbour’s edge. From afar I stalked the ‘black paint and round-windows’ described by my new skipper, and sure enough the rusted Kingfisher floated stoically, while gently nudging the concrete pilings of the wharf. This was to be my first week spent on a fishing boat, after a forgettable stint on the other end of New Zealand where I spent most of the day redecorating the deck of a cod-potting vessel with my breakfast.

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Once aboard the old-timer (built in the 1960s), I began my shift by accidentally dropping a stack of corrugated metal sheeting on the first-mate’s head. “Fuckin’ idiot” I muttered to myself scathingly, after apologising a hundred times.

After loading the boat up with ice, and picking up enough beers to last us the next couple days, we left for Cape Reinga ready to make some bucks.

Unfortunately, the GPS stopped working somewhere around Mangawhai and so we had to wait for spare parts for two days. We needed more beers.

First night on the boat in Whangarei harbour

First night on the boat in Whangarei harbour

Waiting for spare parts

Waiting for spare parts

Snapper bait at Spirit’s Bay

Snapper bait at Spirit’s Bay

Caught the wrong bloody fish (kingfisher)

Caught the wrong bloody fish (kingfisher)

School sharks scared the snapper away

School sharks scared the snapper away

Ice room

Ice room

Going over the bar into Onehunga

Going over the bar into Onehunga

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Other-worldly settings on a boat help you to forget daily worries

Other-worldly settings on a boat help you to forget daily worries

Eventually we got back out to open waters after an agonising wait for a part to be delivered, but over the entire course of a week, we caught barely over a tonne of Tuna. This meant that we didn’t even make enough to cover the trip costs (food, fuel and ice), so none of us made any money.

Midnight on K road

Despite being told by many other travellers and kiwis that Auckland was not the most scenic or attractive place to visit, I have fallen in love with it. I have always been a big city person, and often used to visit my cousin in Hackney when I lived in the UK (I haven’t found a city quite like London just yet though).

I arrived in Auckland on the 20th of December and Karangahape road was one of the first locations that had a vibe I liked; there are always so many interesting faces sauntering around there.

I started to think about what time would be best to capture the real essence of K road, and after a night out in the CBD, I realised that Auckland burns brightest in the early hours.

Kebab shop cleanup

Kebab shop cleanup

What’s in the bag…

What’s in the bag…

The self-proclaimed bodyguard of the Maori hookers of K road. She told me the Maori people have the Ark of the Covenant.

The self-proclaimed bodyguard of the Maori hookers of K road. She told me the Maori people have the Ark of the Covenant.

I need to stop being a pussy and start taking pictures of people without their permission. As compelling as some pictures may be, I always think that when a subject has no idea you’re taking a shot, you can freeze them in a moment of pure emotion. Hopefully it doesn’t result in me getting a hiding!

Drag Queens unloading bags onto K road

Drag Queens unloading bags onto K road

A passerby with an SS Gestapo tattoo on his face

A passerby with an SS Gestapo tattoo on his face

I am going to spend more time on K road at midnight. It would be awesome to get a collection of images of locals and regulars, and to find out their stories.

Tasty darts

Tasty darts

End of shift

End of shift

Having a Hāngi with the Mongrel Mob

Last weekend, I was invited to Hastings with the South Island Fatherland chapter of the Mongrel Mob to take pictures of their 1st anniversary event. The trip would be my first time in North Island, and so I was very interested to see what it was like in comparison to the South. We drove up from Invercargill, which is pretty much at the bottom of the country; the journey took around 20 hours.

Travelling with the mob

Travelling with the mob

North Island window views

North Island window views

The day after we arrived, a load of new members were patched up. Every time a member was called up to collect their patch, they would drink from a motorcycle boot filled with beer and would then bark out to their brothers like a dog.

A member lets out an uncannily dog-like bark

A member lets out an uncannily dog-like bark

A patching day is a very special occasion for the mob and their Whanau, and on this day the Hastings chapter cooked up a Hangi for everyone. A Hangi is a traditional Maori way of cooking food, where a cage of meat and veg is placed atop heated rocks and then cooked in the earth underground while covered with wet cloths and soil.

A member poses next to the fire pit

A member poses next to the fire pit

Putting the Hangi down

Putting the Hangi down

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Unfortunately I didn’t get to stay to try the Hangi for myself, as when I was shooting outside the pad, a member got out his taser and started zapping it next to my leg. After some consideration, I thought it might be time to leave.

Other than that last time, the Mongrel Mob did really make me feel very welcome. I went into a number of members’ personal homes and was always made to feel at ease, despite being surrounded by ‘vicious dogs’ as one member put it.

Thank you to the mob for a great experience.

Haywards Heath to New Zealand

I grew up in a commuter town called Haywards Heath, which is kind of slap-bang between London and Brighton. The only real photography I did in Haywards was in the Chinese restaurant where I worked as a dishwasher; I mainly shot around Brighton and London. I think the reason why I didn't take many photos around where I lived was because I preferred the atmosphere of a big shooting environment like a city, in comparison to a small town where I knew a lot of people. I wish that I had shot what was on my doorstep as well as what was elsewhere.

My boss Simon

My boss Simon

My co-worker Annie

My co-worker Annie

When I was 18 I started wanting to go somewhere where I knew nobody and could make a name for myself. I remember watching the film 'Into The Wild' hundreds of times when I was 16/17/18, and felt like I wanted to have a completely fresh lifestyle. To save for a trip to New Zealand, I started working double shifts as a Bricklayer's labourer in the day, and as a kitchenhand in Waitrose Café at night/on weekends. New Zealand seemed so attractive to me as it was literally as far away as I could get from everything I knew – I couldn't wait.

I flew into Christchurch and desperately started looking for a car. I scoured Trade Me, Backpacker Board and Facebook car groups to find the cheapest car with as little miles as possible. I eventually found one that I thought was in good enough shape to last me for a good while into my trip. That was when the adventure began.

My yellow toyota Corolla on a road near Roxburgh

My yellow toyota Corolla on a road near Roxburgh

Me and my Corolla

Me and my Corolla

I went away with my best mate, but then continued to travel solo when he left to go to Australia. I then got work as a painter's labourer in a small town called Cromwell but then quickly moved to Queenstown, a hub for snowboarding, hiking, mountain biking and other adrenaline sports. There I snowboarded and got different jobs in construction and landscaping and started to focus more on photography, which is what I wanted to do in New Zealand.

The first picture I took in New Zealand

The first picture I took in New Zealand

A picture taken on my first helicopter ride into Southland

A picture taken on my first helicopter ride into Southland

Bob's Cove

Bob's Cove